Bring on 2010

Each new year I start to look ahead, wondering what might happen in the coming year. I'm never right, are you?

Sure, there are some predictable milestones, but for the most part life is a wild ride. There was a time when that left an uneasy feeling within me. I needed to be in control. I worried about what others thought. If life was a race, I had to win.

The new awareness I've gained has been subtle and slow, building with each new discovery. You might want to call it experience, but it's not something that automatically comes because you've logged a few more years. I'm learning... adjusting... letting go.

This past year has brought several twists I never would have asked for or expected. If you'd have asked me last year to describe what my life would look like today, it wouldn't have been anything close to my current reality. I'm not complaining. My life is great... just different. Experience hasn't made me any better at predicting the future; it's taught me to embrace the unknown.

I suppose some would call that faith. Whatever happens, I'm finally convinced God has my best interest in mind. I know He's promised to provide. That's no guarantee of comfort or ease, but rather a calm assurance. I'm free to enjoy the adventure 2010 has in store for me.